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cape aja..cape bgt..tp emang salah aku sendiri sih, awalnya cuma coba2, pngen tahu, pngen sedikit adventurir, tp ternyata falling again deh.. damn!!
wkt aku tanya knp, katanya nyetrum aja..mmm emang suka aneh yg namanya L.O.V.E., but anyway, i feel happy, terasa ada yg mengisi kekosongan walaupun klo dipikir2 lagi, semu dan sementara, tp ya sdhlah hadapi saja..Hadapi dengan senyum..
Last week was a sad week, I must let my two good friends go far far away from me. Feel like left behind but I know our friendship would never break. I am sad but happy because they were leaving for good, for better future, and finally for Kelly, he has achieved his dream to go out from this bloody country.
Physically they are not around but I believe the bond between us will always tie us together.
Wish you every success and happiness, dear friends..
Got an email from a friend yesterday, she told me about her journey in searching of love. She has been sharing her love story for the last one or two years, though we don't meet or call each other regularly, but I am glad that she has trusted me to carry her burden even for a little. Thinking that why we are always torn apart, why we keep bleeding in love, something wrong in our behaviour in treating the wonderful thing called love, or it is just like a karma as we had ever hurt someone in the past. I don't bother actually, but reading my friend's emails make me thinking some points. Is she pushing herself too much to convince even herself that this is the love she wanted, or is she just afraid of running of her time. Someone to love is not easy to find, sometimes we meet someone that we love, but they are the wrong ones. Despite of ages, religion, culture, nation and so many real things in the world, love turns to unreal but we can't deny, we can't hide the feelings, the desires, the passion, the love itself. So, there is nothing we can do, if it comes then welcome it with open arms, and if it goes, just let it go and let the memories stay remain.
Temukan apa arti dibalik cerita
Hati ini terasa berbunga-bunga
Membuat seakan aku melayang
Terbuai asmara
Adakah satu arti dibalik tatapan
Tersipu malu akan sebuah senyuman
Membuat suasana menjadi nyata
Begitu indahnya
Reff:
Dia seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan aku inginkan
Dia melihatku apa adanya seakan kusempurna
Tanpa buah kata kau curi hatiku
Dia tunjukkan dengan tulus cintanya
Terasa berbeda saat bersamanya
Aku jatuh cinta
Dia bukakan pintu hatiku yang lama tak bisa kupercayakan cinta
Hingga dia disini memberi cintaku harapan
dia seperti apa yang ku nantikan aku inginkan
dia melhatku apa adanya seakan kusempurna
Give me your love 2x
Now so come on and love me2x
Give me your love 2x
Now so come on and love me 2x
Nothing in this world could come baby love to me
I would tell the world when you give your love to me
Can you put into words, what you feel when you fall in love
Maybe you can’t but you can feel it
Every word you say
Every breath you take
All about him
You feel like jumping, swinging and flying
Floating and daydreaming
You feel shivering inside just by thinking of him
Drowning just by looking into his eyes
You can’t believe this is true
But yes, you want to tell the world that you are falling in love
You might not be sure of what you are feeling
It’s because you are falling in love
You might be a bit late to realize it
It’s because you are falling in love
After a while, you think that the love has gone
It never had, it still stays in your heart
Maybe you try hard to deny it
But still you can feel it
People say I am insane
But sometimes insanity is needed to be more human
I don’t care what they say
I feel so damn lucky coz I know something missing in my life
I know and I feel it
And I want to fight for it
Poor you, people, who are not insane
You might not know and feel what your soul needs in your entire life
All you can do is complaining and grieving on your grave
Poor you, people
This insane man is pitying you
The way you call me
The way you care for me
The way you ignore me
The way you keep the distance
You are just so perfect
So perfect for me
And that night .. You came into my dream
You called me gently
I know you have been missing me too
Missing our imperfectness when we are together
You are just so close to heart, to mind and to soul
And we don’t even need to say a word to know each other
It’s just like I am standing here
And you are on the other side of mirror
You are every single thing in me
Every word, every breath, every tear, every laugh
So please just stay with me
Coz I need you more than you know
You are my perfectness
You are my imperfectness
Thank you for being just you
Semakin lama aku semakin tahu arti km buat aku. Lately, kalau aku lg feel down, rasanya pengen banget ngadu2 ma km, tadinya sih takut ganggu km beb, tp aku beranikan diri saja en ternyata setiap aku mencoba merelease perasaan aku dg ngadu ke kamu, perasaan aku jd benar2 plong, jd enteng banget!! Maaf yah jd km yg apes deh tuh hehe en thks yah beb mo dengerin aku, paling ga km mo baca sms aku yg annoying buat km. Kadang km suka cuekin aja sms dr aku *nyindir heuheu*, tp aku ngerasa ga butuh respon dr km, krn cuma dg release my feelings to you aja udah bikin aku lega. That's why I call you my TRUE HEALER. Yg ga pernah aku temuin jawabannya adalah walaupun kita jrg komunikasi, tp aku ngerasa en percaya km selalu ada buat aku..kepedean ga sih beb heuheu.. Tp yah mgkn jg ga semua pertanyaan itu hrs ada jawabannya ato butuh dijawab, memang ada hal2 yg sudah spt itulah yg terjadi, yg harus kita terima apa adanya. I feel like I always can turn to you anytime, anyhow. The special bond is always there, a way too strong. Special bond yg tdk menjadikan kita punya keinginan utk saling memiliki, tp yg tetap mengikat kita dlm sebuah persahabatan yg "aneh"..teuteup heuheu.. But anyway..I am glad to have met you and been friends with you all this time.
One of my all-time songs ..
There's a lot of things I ain’t understand
And there's a lot of things that
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
to look me in the eyes
It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get caried away
It's alright, I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet
The scent of vasoline
in the summertime
The feel of an icecube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small
when I begin to cry
It's alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet.
I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed
It’s alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get off of your back
Yeah yeah as shown in my profile, I have just passed my screwed phase..thanks God! Been thinking so many things in the last 2 weeks, and some decisions I have made, hopefully it will work. I had a good weekend coz it was time for me to rest my mind and my body after being in "nano nano situations". All I need now, is a courage to move on, to put aside things which could be any barierrs. I don't want to wait any longer, coz this is what I was supposed to do ages ago!! So I am just happy with me, noone or nothing could take it away from me or could get in my way!